good lord the sword misses her lady and her girls and her wife and the rest of the court and while she's endured loneliness on an actually cosmic scale before and come thru fine it's still miserable to be without people she genuinely, truly loves, esp since there isn't anyone here she'd be capable of ever loving half as much, yet, she just doesn't have anyone she's invested in caring about that way.

she's not quite fully vulnerable to the lonely's grip because if she were truly disconnected from them she'd feel it and also her clothes were literally made for her to wear by them, they're a constant ever-present reminder that even if she's temporarily apart she is always loved and when your love is god-punching tier strong-willed it's probably not really possible to be overcome by outside manipulation that way, but she is, still, deeply lonely in at least this sense of no one she loves is here to love her, all the same.