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Martin K(nife) Blackwood ([personal profile] curriculum_fictae) wrote2020-06-16 06:15 pm

[PSL] time travel, time travel

[ Martin had always known that Lukas would kill him in the end. If not along the way, then surely at the end, once he'd gotten what he wanted out of Martin, whatever that turned out to be. When the Lonely rose up to swallow him, he'd accepted his impending death with ... what?

What did he have left, really? Numbness, mostly. A hallucination of Jon in the Lonely, looking for him, but - but that was impossible, ridiculous. His mind playing cruel tricks. He settled himself down in the frigid surf, knees drawn up close to his chest, unshed tears frozen to his cheeks and lashes.

And then. A door. A door that shouldn't exist, that couldn't exist. That he shouldn't take at all. The Lonely was terrible, yes, but it was quiet, and it was peaceful. Martin was aligned enough with it by now to very nearly enjoy it, in a strange and terrible way. The Spiral would be infinitely worse than this quiet beach.

But ... it was hope, too. In a strange way. Hope enough that Martin found himself turning the door handle and stepping through, leaving the false comfort of the Lonely behind him.

The transition was unpleasant. Long. But Martin couldn't remember it after; he only remembered stumbling out through the door of a supply closet somewhere deep in the Archives, blinking up at the dim bulbs that pretended to be sufficient. What time was it? Had he escaped? Where were Lukas and Elias now?

And where was Jon? ]
eyediot: (but my memory could not be saved)

[personal profile] eyediot 2020-06-28 11:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[It bothers him - not in a negative way, but in the way that's worried about him.]

And I hope my best is good enough.
eyediot: (it just seems unlikely)

[personal profile] eyediot 2020-06-28 11:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[A GUFFAW!!! And sputter, he is so OFFENDED.]

You don't quite have to put me down like that!

[personal profile] eyediot 2020-06-28 11:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[JUST BECAUSE IT'S TRUE YOU SHOULDN'T SAY IT]

Well.. I guess I'll just have to do better than my best, won't I?
eyediot: (My dreams were shattered)

[personal profile] eyediot 2020-06-28 11:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Isn't that generally frowned upon in some video games?

[Look he may fancy himself an intellectual and focuses mostly in nonfiction, but it doesn't mean he doesn't know what his own generation is doing.]
eyediot: (like a stained glass window)

[personal profile] eyediot 2020-06-28 11:40 pm (UTC)(link)
...Well that doesn't matter much if you aren't safe as well.
eyediot: (cause I need to remember my place)

[personal profile] eyediot 2020-06-28 11:47 pm (UTC)(link)
... It does to me.
eyediot: (but my memory could not be saved)

[personal profile] eyediot 2020-06-28 11:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[God.... Martin why.]

Because I care about you.
eyediot: (*deep inhale*)

[personal profile] eyediot 2020-06-29 12:00 am (UTC)(link)
[HE'S NEVER EXPRESSING AN EMOTION EVER AGAIN if all it gets him is having it kinda thrown back in his face. He looks visibly taken aback by Martin's words and watches him.]

...I didn't realize time was the main factor in being allowed to feel things. My apologies, then.
eyediot: (that it's me who was to blame)

[personal profile] eyediot 2020-06-29 12:13 am (UTC)(link)
[Christ maybe he was too harsh on Martin when he started the archive recording process if this is what Martin thinks of himself now. Even after... The Lonely? Got him.]

That isn't true, you know.

[His voice is soft, and that rare kind of sympathetic - like helping someone through something traumatic, he's handled it a few times taking statements directly from subjects. Helen, comes to mind actually. That is who he'd last taken a statement from like that.]

You shouldn't think that, Martin.
eyediot: (it just seems unlikely)

[personal profile] eyediot 2020-06-29 12:26 am (UTC)(link)
...So?

All of that doesn't mean you aren't Martin.

[For all the confusing things, timelines, conspiracies going on, the idea of Martin being here is... A no brainer.]
eyediot: (but my memory could not be saved)

[personal profile] eyediot 2020-06-29 12:31 am (UTC)(link)
... All the same.

[He just... almost looks sad by that. He thought he'd gotten through. It just means he'll have to show he means it through actions over the next however long.

The kitchen's done, and they already said they weren't working on the board tonight. He looks at the clock on his range and sighs.]


I'll catch you in the morning.
eyediot: (In the deep city streets in the summer o)

[personal profile] eyediot 2020-06-29 12:38 am (UTC)(link)
You don't have to do that.

[BECAUSE HE'LL BEAT YOU TO IT.]

Try to sleep some?