Martin K(nife) Blackwood (
curriculum_fictae) wrote2020-08-23 08:44 am
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[PSL-Adjacent] time travel side story
[ Is this part of the other PSL? MAYBE ... tbd.
But - this is the Martin who went back in time to the second season, before everything really started going to hell. It hasn't been the most pleasant ride - seeing himself, accidentally triggering Not-Sasha's attack, the confrontation with Elias - but it's been better. He'd begged Michaelen not to take him back for multiple reasons. Yes, he thinks help more here, but ... he also doesn't want to go home to die. Not when there's a Jon here who's willing to love him, when Tim is blossoming into a new best friend, and even Martin is slowly moving towards self-acceptance in a literal sense.
For the first time in months, Martin - no, Algric - sees the shape of what a peaceful life could be. This could be a world where he lives in Jon's flat for the rest of his life, where he doesn't only have to be a helpful ghost. The Lonely is still too strong in him, but he feels it weakening in spots, where Tim and Jon and Martin have all helped him remember what it's like to have human connection.
That's why he's here at Hilltop Road. He dares to hope now; he dares to consider the possibility that he might get to keep all of this. And if he wants to keep this, he has to make sure there's no way back to the hell he left. Michaelen's appearance had scared him more deeply than he wants to let on.
As he mounts the steps to the rickety old house, Algric takes in a shivering breath. It's fine. It's fine, this is fine, he's just - just going to look. And if there's a creepy basement with a crack in the world, he's not going to go through it! He's just going to. See if it's there or not. If he thinks his timeline is on the other side or not. ]
But - this is the Martin who went back in time to the second season, before everything really started going to hell. It hasn't been the most pleasant ride - seeing himself, accidentally triggering Not-Sasha's attack, the confrontation with Elias - but it's been better. He'd begged Michaelen not to take him back for multiple reasons. Yes, he thinks help more here, but ... he also doesn't want to go home to die. Not when there's a Jon here who's willing to love him, when Tim is blossoming into a new best friend, and even Martin is slowly moving towards self-acceptance in a literal sense.
For the first time in months, Martin - no, Algric - sees the shape of what a peaceful life could be. This could be a world where he lives in Jon's flat for the rest of his life, where he doesn't only have to be a helpful ghost. The Lonely is still too strong in him, but he feels it weakening in spots, where Tim and Jon and Martin have all helped him remember what it's like to have human connection.
That's why he's here at Hilltop Road. He dares to hope now; he dares to consider the possibility that he might get to keep all of this. And if he wants to keep this, he has to make sure there's no way back to the hell he left. Michaelen's appearance had scared him more deeply than he wants to let on.
As he mounts the steps to the rickety old house, Algric takes in a shivering breath. It's fine. It's fine, this is fine, he's just - just going to look. And if there's a creepy basement with a crack in the world, he's not going to go through it! He's just going to. See if it's there or not. If he thinks his timeline is on the other side or not. ]
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He sees the fog there. The all-encompassing fog surrounding him, covering like a blanket. Where Elias would rip through it with no remorse or care, Jon carefully peels back a small corner. Just to peek. There are other threads: a snaking, swirling spiral of curls; the ice cold core of the Lonely; and of course that green, ever present Eye on the lookout, wanting to not be seen. It works in perfect tandem with the Lonely's fog, really. He sees.... some slapdash work on his mind, a healing wound with a softer bandage over it. His past-self's handiwork, looks like. He wonders what happened there.
But.
He blinks, the green gone and swallows.]
You're... close. On the edge. I think... If we could find the right counter to the Lonely, you'd have one shot at going back. But just the one.
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Then it's over and - oh. Oh, that gives him hope. Not much hope, but that just means it's realistic, right? ]
B-but it's - it's possible. I could be human. If. If I found a way back.
[ Relief and uncertainty in equal measure. ]
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[He... If Algric went back to being human, Jon doesn't know what that means for them, together.
The care he took in that was a little more exertion than he'd intended to use. He squeezes Algric's hand again.]
There's still a chance for you.
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Is there a way to do both? He doesn't know. ]
I - I'm glad to know. That I still have a choice.
[ He grips Jon's hand hard. ]
But I'm not making any choices tonight. Other than - than to decide which episode of the Great British Bakeoff we're watching.
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But he does smile at that.]
...A Nadiya episode is the only correct answer.
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[ Algric gently reaches a hand out for Jon's face. ]
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Only because you asked. Come on.
[He turns his head to his palm before pushing himself to his feet, one hand to Algric's elbow to help ease him up.
Doesn't take but a few minutes to get set up on the couch, one Algric-chosen episode up and going. Jon... finally feels like he can relax. He'd been wire-tension anxiety and on edge since he woke up in Hilltop, but now... feels like the time he can let it go a little.]
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Despite saying he wants to watch the programme, Algric can't possibly have a good view with his face turned into Jon's shoulder. But somehow, he still seems utterly content. ]
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He's not making any sound, his face straight ahead at the tv. But the slowest flow of tears down his face. He forces his breath steady, thumbing circles into Algric's shoulder.
He's fairly certain he won't stop.]
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Then he looks up, and. Oh. He watches for a moment, unsure of how to interrupt. If he should interrupt. He doesn't move, but instead only speaks softly: ]
Jon?
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His eyes flutter quickly, a sharp breath but the tears don't stop.]
S-sorry. Was- Should I move? Are you uncomfortable?
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[ He straightens a little, moving to get behind him properly. And leaning up to smooth tears away with one cheek. ]
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I'm--... You don't have to.
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[ He keeps brushing them away, gently, using his sleeve if he needs to. Not urging Jon to stop, not at all. ]
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He doesn't deserve this. He destroyed the world in their timeline. Saw the worst possible things that can happen to humans, and even worse, he fed off of it. He's the worst kind of monster.]
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He just reaches over to him now, pulling him in for a desperate hug. It's okay, you won't hurt his jumper by getting it wet. Won't hurt Algric by needing him. If anything, the opposite is true. ]
I'm sorry. I'm sorry I wasn't there, I'm sorry it's all happened, I'm sorry --
[ He clings to Jon, fingers fisting in his hair, another hand clutching at his back. He's here, Jon, he's here now. ]
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Please don't apologize.
[It's about all he can manage to get out before a wet gasp, trying to get his breath steady again. And instead, he turns more into Algric, clutching at his back. He can't tell him. Jon can't ever bring himself to tell him the things he saw, the things he Knew happening. It was overflowing and...
There's a tape recorder here somewhere.
He'll deal with that. At some point. Probably if Algric falls asleep.]
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[ He just holds Jon closer, soothing his hands over his back. He doesn't want to be anywhere else right now; even with Jon weeping, this is all he's ever wanted. He can only guess at what Jon's seen, but if he can provide even a scrap of comfort ...
Yes. Yes, he can do that. He curls around Jon protectively, murmuring every soft thing he can think of. ]
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I... [Sighs.] I made a mess of your jumper.
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That's - that's all right. I'll wash this one.
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He keeps his face pressed against him.]
...I never deserved you, you know.
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For now, though, he just pets Jon's head. ]
What, me? I was - I was never worth anything, Jon.
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Maybe he's not in a good place to have this conversation, mentally or emotionally.]
...I don't think I ever said it be-before but. I'm.. I'm sorry. For all the times I was.... An arse to you. You were just. Trying to help and take care of us any way you could.
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Only took the end of the world to see it?
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[He's not laughing.]
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when your dyslexia kicks in and has you misread a tag completely and you roll anyway
HAHAHA it's all good
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